So i wake up at 7am to immediately start thinking about her. how i wish i could wake up to her next to me. just like i used to.. i grab my pillow and scream into it. Why does shit have to b this way? i wana fix it. i try and b ok..
but im really not at all.
i layed in bed for an hour and a half thinking abot her. I want her in my life. Im afraid to text her tho. i wonder what she is doing without me???? did she move on? is she happy without me? does she miss me? ahhh so many questions with no answers..fuuuuuuuuckkkkkk im so lost i wish it could b easy.. i crawl outa bed and head up stairs. only to think about pinching her butt as she would go up the stairs infront of me. :( what the fuck. and i sit here and write about her. damn ..shes all i think about its crazy. n here i go, yet another day i will think about her all day and pretend to b ok. i hope she texes me or mabey calls me. im way to scared to. well im gona go wander around my house and think about her as always peaceeeeee
3 years ago
i fell in love with a girl and now we are done.?.?.? why i guess im an ass hole and ill never change. i know i will change and im willing to do so . yes theres more i said sum stuff to sumone i shouldnt have said. about 6-7 months ago.. i wish i could take it back but i cant. it wasnt meant to mean anything but it was taken as the wrong way. its to late to take it back. i wish i could but i cant :( life is crazy now i try and pretend im okay but im not at all. my life is a living hell. i sit and think about this grl every minuite of the day. i cant get her outa my mind at all. i go and have fun with my friends but i talk about her. i sit in my room and i cry all night cause i think about her. i fucked up and i cant change the past. but how do you end love.. you cant. why leave love behind? you shouldnt… how do you forget about sumone you love…imposible. i want to b with her because shes the best girl in the whole world.. i love her to death. shes going places with her life..shes a CNA. she has a car shes going to college shes living a great life. and a girl like that is hard to find. i just wish i was still in her life as her man…as her lover. as her fiance. ….we were engaged and happy for a while then argued but we got thru it all. except now backs are turned and there is no more..o what i would do to b with her..i love her and i always will
3 years ago
